‘It is when I seem to be doing the least that I am doing the most.    

  Leonardo de Vinci   

As you may have noticed, my writer self has not been visible on this  page lately. Since the beginning of 2010, I have been in a place of deep introspection, contemplative listening: more being than doing, the nourishing nurturing space so vital to the  core of my ‘ I AM~ness’. Scanning my favourite art book, I was encouraged recently as I reread Jeanne Carbonetti’s insightful description of her process that so closely mirrors mine.  

“…the world goes into soft focus…when I am in the waiting cycle…paying attention to the slightest stirrings that guide me to the next step….the being in the world, but not of the world…. Had I been busily engaged in something productive, I may have missed those stirrings.”

And so it is and was for me, when the art above began to call forth, beckon,  flow on to the page guiding me from within to paint it into life.  I stared fascinated, bemused by the pattern splay; the moving into intention phase, bringing  essence into clear focus.

The following dialogue began running through my awareness ~ I burst out laughing,  tears running down my cheeks and I had to stop the paint flow and capture the wordage flow on paper. 

“I am Brigid. Brigid the goddess of Inspiration”, she began.  Ummmmm… Okay, I thought: I had placed that card on my desk top recently for several months. Good, inspiration was stirring within.

AND THEN THE YAMMERING BEGAN

~I soon began to think of her as ‘Sassy Assy’ rather than Goddess Brigid, as you may immanently understand~ 

(~~ at sentence beginning will indicate Brigid’s words )

Hey come on You, it’s time to stop this now!
~~Huh~ I ain’t’ stopping

I mean you gotta quit spreading your fire wings…its getting ridiculous…you’re almost off the page
~~So what’s the problem…who’s to say…

Well, I am. You’re going into an art show, and so you will be viewed as a work of art and you should be …
~~Should be what!  I’m a work for anyone to judge!!!  No way!
Who are you?  What’s up….you’ve waited all these years to come to  this moment and you are telling me not to spread my wings, not to take up all the space that surrounds me…

Well no, I guess…
~~Whadda you mean…you guess…. I don’t believe you!  What happened to you!!

Well we kinda created this YOU… together right?
~~Right… soooooooo

Well I only knew I was birthing something, ‘cause I felt so crappy for so long~ and then I sensed how close I was to this change within and … and I  already knew what I was submitting to the International Women’s Day Art show!   It was a done deal and…
~~And what !!!!  I hadn’t appeared yet! ….so NO deal~!!

Well ummmmm…in my cauldron of mulling and fogginess of becoming ness ummm…ahhhh I just thought I’d play with paint…that creativity always feels good in the midst of my inner turmoil and then…
~~YAH and then….I SURPRISED YOU DIDN’T I~!!!!

Yah you did~ painted~ let it dry~came down the next day~and there you are staring at me~ Up heaving all my plans…

~~Hey you…Linda! …it’s like this…

~~if you are open to divine will, you are on the path of conscious living, willing to transform within and without…haha ~ what a word….within and out wardly….And then I am willing to allow you to paint me onto the page to show you what you are birthing i.e.  Your INNER PHOENIX!!!!!  What’s your problem with what I LOOK LIKE…~~!!!!!!

You’re gonna go through all this and then Give a Damn about what other people think about how I look!!!!!   Seeding, gestating labouring and emerging IS MESSY work alright~~! There ain’t any other way…

~~And now that I am here, Lady….you bet I’m gonna spread my wings any which way I CHOOSE.

LOOK OUT WORLD HERE WE COME~!

 Oh my jumping heavenly hosts, I silently mumbled, remembering the truth of the saying:

 Be Careful What You Pray For~~

HAVING FUN

 Mirror, Mirror, what do I see reflecting back at me…..?
 
Annoyance, humour, AHA moments, all full of possibility~

 

Years ago strolling along a beach crying not good enough tears, I painfully came  into the moment as I stubbed my toe on something hidden in the sand.  Reaching down, I picked up a small heart shaped rock with a chunk missing from one corner. 

Its metaphorical and metaphysical message struck me profoundly.

Since that day, I have been aware that my most important life’s purpose was first, remembering to love myself deeply;  then from within, I have much to share and offer in love to others.  

In my life, pre-the toe stubbing on the broken hearted rock, the messages blaring through my perceptionary field spoke illusive  concepts of always being good, quiet, sweet, pretty, the perfect size, using the right products, trying hard to own the right stuff and above all pleasing the people cared for, to get love.  These messages led me deeper and deeper into confusion, self doubt, frustration and depression~ de-pressed energy~ since of course, I had wandered a long way away from the real beauty of me~!

As I began to remember my way back to myself by listening to my soul call, things began shifting deeply within me.  AHA’S after AHA continued to drop in; deep understanding of self caring, self responsibility, self forgiveness,  the power of conscious choice, healthy boundaries, mind body spirit connection and the true empowerment of shaping my own life were the universal sign posts leading me back.

As I continue to follow my Soul Song, my life responds and mirrors back to me the beauty and love that has always been in the world, when I hold the willingness to see with clear eyes.

The following quote continues to inspire my adventuresome life.

” The world would have you agree with its dismal dream of limitation but the light would have you soar like the eagle of its sacred vision.”   Cohen~
       

And the playful part of me  just HAD TO TRY the  ‘take your own picture in the mirror’  trick I have watched children do for years. I am so glad I had the sense of fun to do this; however, I see that  I have photos in TWO  places and I can’t seem to delete one of them. 

Guess My Inner Child Really Wanted To Play

HAVING FUN

Since fun and playfulness all raise our vibrations….

HOW HIGH CAN WE ALL SOAR TOGETHER ?

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Learning to love yourself, is the beginning of a life long romance.

Oscar Wilde

One of my favorite Soul Print expressions of kindness, I found in a beautifully simple but profound book, titled Living in Joy.

If you can exist in a feeling of love~
If you can find it in everything you do,
Transmit it through your touch,
through your words,
eyes and feelings~
You can cancel out with one act of love
thousands of acts
of a lower nature.

Sanaya Roman

I WONDER… how our world would shift, if we resonated this wisdom, more often?

“If it makes your heart sing, it’s a soul thing.”

 One day bubbling with happiness these words spilled on to the card I was making. There before me, lay puzzle piece answers to the most elemental questions of life: the very questions I had been asking of my self since my earliest years.

“Who am I?”

“What am I here for?”

“How come the adults don’t seem to know how to do this thing called Life?”

I now know that my pondering, a prayer some might say, was a need within me, beckoning me, soul calling me toward my purpose for being. Even at 4 years of age, in essence I was asking the universe, the source within me, how to gain insight into the care and nurturing of my own soul.

For many years I forgot my soul song. I wandered, living an outward everyday life, doing many of the things society told me would bring happiness, yet knowing something was deeply crying within me. Always seeking, I functioned in the world of family, relationships, education and the professional world the best way I knew how. I survived. And, I also accomplished some wonderful things.

Yet inside, I often felt hurting, hollow, in hiding. I now realize I was not alone in this way of functioning in the world; however, I didn’t yet know that much of the world also existed in this same manner.

But that day, in the magic of simple prose, answers to my inner questing challenged me boldly, with profound simplicity.

“Linda, Linda love,” my soul spoke, “go search out that which makes your heart happy. Then, I will join you in creating your new soul song~!”

My wish is that here you may find inspiration, musings and aspects that stir your soul, inviting you to consider new ways of questioning, seeing and being in your life.

Today, I invite ‘You’ to come join me in creating Your New Soul Song; in finding those things that make your heart sing, your belly fill with laughter, and your gifts to flow out into the world.

In Peace, Love, and Joy

Expect Miracles!