Believing Ones Way Beyond The Fear
I Pulled my Courage up from the Depths of Somewhere…
There are times in life, when suddenly the path ahead is obscured beyond any human understanding. The challenge looming menacingly ahead, may feel like a roaring avalanche about to engulf, when one hadn’t even been aware that they had stepped onto the mountain. Choosing to trust this mysterious force is not a journey for the faint of heart. It is however, the pathway to miracles and breathing space.
The En Visioning Call of My Soul…
Having completed my Bachelor of Arts degree in psychology, I then was offered a place in the Faculty of Education to complete my teaching degree. Being in fear through most of my teens, feeling little personal power and lack of support, even censure when I had attempted to embrace life in new ways, I had not ventured into the world to follow my heart’s desire after high school. I truly began to embrace the inner challenge of the ongoing ‘lesson’ of reclaiming my authenticity throughout my marriage. At the earth age of ‘30′ mother of 4 children, sitting in the golden ( really!) chair I will always remember, I clearly heard my Higher Self say to me:
“Linda, you CAN become a teacher!”
Stunned, I began to breathe in the possiblity of reclaiming the dream I had secretly carried, since I was a tiny child. The rest of this is a story for another day……
Now Life was calling me again and and just as imperatively. This time the reverberations awakened my saddened soul and I knew that the only choice for me was to accept the honour of being offered a place at the Faculty, although having no idea ‘how’ any of this could be possible. I had just become the single parent of four children with an already large student loan, part time work as a grocery clerk left me with no idea “How” I was to pay the bills each month. Then I suddenly learned that the children and I were now living in a home that going up for sale, imminently In Yet……
Beckoned from within, in both great fear and mumbling prayer, I blindly began to trust the vision I had seen years earlier. Although I truly felt I was in a check mate position I pulled my courage up from the depth of somewhere I knew not, since this route seemed the only way I would be able to secure a teaching position to be able to care for my family.
I had forgotten that my soul knew the golden path before me.
Arising in the dark each morning, four hours before class was to begin in the city, I would travel, study and return home in the evening. When people asked me how I did this, my reply was always: “Please don’t ask me right now.” It seemed that if I spoke, my suppressed pain and exhaustion would engulf me; I needed every bit of my energy focused on the task ahead. I carried the poem Footprints folded in my wallet and simply kept keeping on.
The inevitable day came when I looked in the refrigerator and there was almost nothing eat. My insides began to cave. Shaking and silently praying, I heard my oldest daughter say: “Its okay mom, it’s been worse”.
I blessed her for her faith. There comes a level of fear that is completely numbing and perhaps this is the gift that allows one to continue moving forward into the unknown when trust is still a fledging. Arising at 5:00 a. m. the next morning, I once again headed to the university, fear pulsing the beat of my heart.
Later that day, researching in the library, the librarian noticed I was strained. I mentioned my situation and that this time I simply didn’t know how I could continue and I had no answers in my awareness, anymore. She smiled and me took down the hall, indicating the Awards Office. Go in there now, she lovingly told me and gently nudged me forward.
On automatic pilot, I entered and began to speak, tears falling as my words dripped out. I will never forget the woman who questioned and listened that day. She gently told me to take the form, to fill it in immediately and return it right away.
Then, because I had ‘believed’ my way beyond my fear and had shared with another ~ since a Miracle is simply a Change in Perception, the key to opening to a miracle began to unfold.
Having reached beyond my old belief system of “ You Have to Do it all Yourself” , three days later I had enough money for food as she handed me the cheque and my eyes once again filled with tears. She soothed my aching soul by acknowledging: “You really need this, don’t you.”
To my surprise, she also passed me another application form, repeating the instructions to complete it immediately. This went on for three months, allowing me to feed my children, to complete my year and graduate with my Bachelor of Education.
I never knew the woman’s name, but to me she was my Angel. This possibly humiliating situation brought healing and hope to me and my family, through her heart felt compassion. Allowing me to keep my dignity, she saw with eyes of love. I truly know that she was one of ways in which Divine Love carried me through that year.
Graduating with honours was merely a bonus. How the rest of the technicalities worked out, I really don’t remember. I do know for sure, however that there truly are angels on earth.
I know she was one of the many Human Angels who believed in me and carried me through that year.
Dear God/dess, thank you for every day miracles. May we remember that when we forget and tremble in fear, You have infinite resources beyond all measures. Thank you for the still small voice within that guides and supports us, through what may seem the most dire of circumstances. For this most precious gift we offer our heartfelt and humble thanks.
Might you be ready to shift one perception; to invite a miracle into your life?
And if so, which one do you choose to shift ?
Many blessings Linda
Offering A Prayer For Our World
I Pray You’ll Be Our Light
And Hold It In Our Hearts
THANKS FOR THIS INEFFABLE GIFT OF BEAUTY
This morning I awoke, hearing the words of ‘THE PRAYER’.
I knew I was to share it with others, along with this wonderous gift of my sister’s photography.
Just as I believe, know, that what and how I think negatively affects my day and my life, I also know the awesome power of the positive in my world.
I invite you to hold in your awareness today the beauty of our world, the gift of creativity ~ of music, photography, writing, art. May these timeless art forms enrich our collective lives by offering breathing space~ahhhaaaa~ appreciation and deepen our understanding of each other.
Know, also that the power of collective prayer, intention, holding light and kindness within, amplifies greatly when we gather together.
Amid all the chaos, this world still holds the light and love of truth, simplicity, inclusiveness and peace.
THE PRAYER
I pray You’ll be our eyes
And watch us where we go
And help us to be wise
In times when we don’t know
Let this be our prayer
When we lose our way
Lead us to a place
Guide us with Your grace
To a place where we’ll be safe
I pray we’ll find Your light
And hold it in our hearts
When stars go out each night
Remind us where You are
Let this be our prayer
When shadows fill our day
Oh Lord, lead us to a place,
Guide us with Your grace
Give us faith so we’ll be safe
A world where pain and sorrow will be ended
And every heart that’s broken will be mended
And we’ll remember we are all God’s children
Reaching out to touch you, reaching to the sky
We ask that life be kind
And watch us from above
We hope each soul will find
Another soul to love
Let this be our prayer
Just like every child
Twice:
Needs to find a place
Guide us with Your grace
Give us faith so we’ll be safe
As sung by Yolanda Adams
And if it speaks to your heart, I offer from my heart, one of my favorite Soul Sayings for times of unrest.
Into this space I now come, affirming:
PEACE, PEACE BE STILL.
Thanks for joining the energy of this prayer for our world. Blessings to all.
Love and blessings Karen, for the many gifts you bring to my life and to our world. Lynn
Universal Invite To Step Out Of The Box:
The New Moon In Cancer Eclipse:
Time To Make Time For The New~
If you have been feeling challenged, cranky, exhausted lately, and perhaps now feeling somewhat like my furry Angel friend here:
MODELLING EXTREME SELF CARE
….know that you are not alone.
In many ways the universe is inviting us to open up and let go of those things that are no longer serve our best interests; not always does this seem our choice at the time. People and situations may no longer match who we are vibrationally, or that of whom we are soon becoming.
Astrologers tell us that eclipses are a natural ‘housecleaning’ phenomenon that open a portal or space in the universe, so that we may ‘toss’ the old and by our willingness, positive belief and action, move into creating something brand new for ourselves.
For me, in the last few weeks, work hours disappeared, the power steering hoses in my car rusted out and needed to be replaced, my furry Angel Cat friend became unwell and a course I was anticipating needed to be cancelled, due to a personal crisis in the instructor’s life.
Throughout this challenging time, I was able to stay grounded and in the knowing that all would work itself out, in time. I stayed connected to my favorite touchstone saying, offered to me by my colleague friend, Sonia:
‘I have no idea how all of this will work out. My job is to follow my spirit and God ( Source, the Universe, insert your own word here ) is looking after the HOW~~~’
Also during this time, creative new ideas and opportunities I was able to incorporate into my work opened up for me; several relationships deepened, wonderful family connections happened, supportive new friends arrived and the miracle of ‘found money’ assisted me on my journey.
Transforming times like these remind me of one of my favourite pieces of prose, from my childhood:
HALFWAY DOWN
Halfway down the stairs
Is a stair
Where I sit.
There isn’t any
Other stair
Quite like
It.
I’m not at the bottom,
I’m not at the top;
So this is the stair
Where I always
Stop.
Halfway up the stairs
Isn’t up,
And isn’t down.
It isn’t in the nursery,
It isn’t in the town.
And all sort of funny thoughts
Run round my head:
“It isn’t really
Anywhere!
It’s somewhere else
Instead!”
A.A Milne
Today offers a very real opening in the ethers, to pause in the ‘ SOMEWHERE ELSE INSTEAD’, to walk out of the fear and shift to one’s perception to a positive outlook. It is also a powerful time to write out a New Moon Wish list, noting those things you choose to create. The key to manifesting is found in the intensity of feeling, the trueness of ones heart’s desire that sends the affirmation forward.
Whether through prayer, meditation, intention or dreaming this is a powerful time to send your new CREATIVE SOUL PRINT out to the universe, to be supported by all that is.
P.S. You may wish to check out your favourite astrologers for more info on where the Eclipse falls in your chart and this amazing opportunity to let go of old paradigms.
Cosmic Blessings to you all~
Linda
Letting God Out Of The Box…
So We Can Fly Free
SKYWALKER LUKE~!
I was confounded that adults would believe God only shared the whole truth with a particular group: theirs. And even more so, when I heard that this meant that all the others in the ‘wrong’ group, would most surely be going to the H e double l place, or at the very least to a ‘lesser degree of glory’…..whatever that meant?
Since I was blessed, intuitively guided to always be connected to the God source energy in my heart, in nature, in the love I felt for my sisters, and in many others who did not go to the current church of choice, this adult need to label and attend the ‘right’ church made no sense to me.
All my inward observing and questioning became the catalyst that challenged me to sort out my own spiritual beliefs. Opening to this questioning transferred to other societal systems in my life; an essential process of individuation that allows me to formulate, on an ongoing basis my own deepest truth, as I know it, for today.
One day, teaching a Health for Life class to adults, I was using the ‘Box Theory’ as a metaphor for limited choice living. Wanting to share this concept with the class, I drew a square shaped box on the board, extolling the virtues of remembering that no matter how ‘bad’ it looks in the moment, one always has a CHOICE.
This word was written boldly in the middle of the box. The point being, that choices may not be the great ones we long for, however making a choice, is a choice. And it always leads to somewhere new. Some how, one can always break out of boxed in situations. A very valuable life lesson to extol, I believed.
I had the class’s full attention and sensed that the lesson was going quite well, which as any teacher knows is a dream moment to treasure in education! Using the illustration on the board, to emphasize my concept, I heard a voice from the back of the room quietly say: “Linda, look at your middle finger”.
I stopped, looking down at my hand. I was holding the chalk in my right hand, between my thumb and my index finger, pointing to the center of the box with my middle finger for emphasis.
“Humm…”, I said. “I believe that body language is a great subliminal teacher. It looks as if I still have some unresolved issues around feeling boxed in! ”
We all burst into laughter.
I’m sure this was one lesson they will never forget and I like that Divine Humour was my teaching assistant that day, emphasizing the Spiritual Law of The Power of Choice.
How often do you remember to use your power of Choice ?
From what invisible box might you be ready to break free?
Thanks Luke for you unforgettable demo of stepping out to the box~! Love Aunt Linda
